Thursday, May 28, 2009♥

8:36 PM

just now has forgotten to write
bout my dream this morning ;

yesterday night told him something
feel upset but that the only dicision i can do
sleep then about 11:30pm

at first i think just because feeling guilty maybe so i dream it

the DREAM ;
it was something saying about
a holiday with my dears
- feli ; qii ; cheryl ; c.y.teng
then when i saw him there i run.
he chased me & i run as fast as i could
after that i saw a room with the door opened & i run into it & locked the door
he asked me to open the door but i didn't till he became angry and scold rude words then go away.
then in the resort i just keep away from him & run when saw him
=S
woke up bout 3am after the dream
and my face was wet with tears


what a dream make me no mood after that
when reach school then told feli and c.y.teng bout the dream
even when sitting exam
i still think about it
it really making my mood worse and worst !

and now i'm revisioning and listening to the song "Song from the secret garden"
my tears is falling down from my eyeside
i think bout the memory & how good was he treat me
i told myself to appreciate everything by my side before
but i didn't appreciate !
i can't explain my mood now with any word
i just know i still care bout him
but as erer said to me
don't even think to get back
i will hurt him more if i do so
nothing else i can do
i know it
for not hurting him more
i know what should do and shouldn't do

the last sentence i can say to him
before i save all the memory inside my heart
is just
--* take care of yourself. goodbye *--